"Child, your sins are forgiven..."

When was the last time we actually rejoiced, or at the very least showed support, at the sight of a sinner who sought for healing and forgiveness from the Lord? In today’s Gospel we find two kinds of people – those who help carry the weak and the suffering at the Lord’s feet for them to experience healing and forgiveness; and, there are those who easily question, doubt and dismiss any work of healing and forgiveness from the Lord. Our lives are peopled with those types of individuals. We thank the Lord for them especially those who help us carry our worries and pains to the Lord. We take greater consolation at the sight of the Lord who even though we are pinned down on our own mats by our own woundedness and by the incredulity of some individuals, the Lord continues to look at us with loving mercy and kindness, hears our cries, forgives our sins, and beckons us to “stand up, pick up our mats,” and to move on with our lives with deep joy.

Entangled

Entangled

Sometimes one would just find himself or herself in a situation one cannot simply escape from -- i.e. school requirements or corporate demands, expectations from family or peers, or purely the result of a bad decision from the distant past... Even though how much effort one extends, you just cannot entangle your self from it.   

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Chocolate War

I was on my way to the AVR to teach a class of third year students when I saw EJ, an English teacher, who was at that time preparing his learning activities at the Mac Laboratory. He offered me a dvd copy of The Chocolate War. He suggested that I watch it but he expressed caution since the film, and even the novel from which it was based, was, to say the least, controversial. The novel, penned by Robert Cormier, was banned in the U.S. for some time.

The Chocolate War is set in a Catholic boys' prep school. Jerry, a new student, finds himself at odds with Bro. Leon -- the acting administrator of the school. He refuses to sell chocolates at the school's annual fund raising activity which was Bro. Leon's pet project. Jerry's lack of alacrity brings the ire of the school administrator. So, Bro. Leon teams up with Archie, one of the leaders in the school underground fraternity, to make Jerry's life, literally, a living hell. But the uncompromising Jerry stands his ground.

There are different levels to winnow through the story. One commentator suggests that the film "explores the cruelty and betrayal of adolescence."

It did.

It brings light to my present state as a nouveau éducateur. A month has already passed, almost, from the day I first started teaching. I realize that this is not easy stuff. I find dealing and relating with students half my age a very challenging task. It is not easy to relate with adolescents -- well, my adolescent years were not easy also. At one time, I was saying to myself that I ought to visit my high school alma mater and say sorry to the teachers for whom I brought about headaches and heartaches. There isjust so much energy and gusto in teenagers. It is difficult to get their attention and to make them focus on the task at hand.

And I think the commentator is right to say so. There is cruelty and betrayal in adolescence. But it is not because adolescents are cruel. It is just not easy for them. In their eyes, life is difficult. Family concerns, pressures from peers, stress brought about by the future, relationships, identity crisis converge in this area of their life.

Life, for them and as it was for me, is difficult. More than a chocolate war, they are in a war.

As an educator, building trust is of high importance. Sincerity is necessary. In the end it is not about discipline or making their crooked lines straight. It is about journeying with them, nurturing the light. To be an educator, is to be a beacon of hope for them.

Turned Thirty

I just turned thirty last April 30. And as I look back at the past years, I say to myself that I have no regrets. I had have my own share of shortcomings and pieces of pitfalls. But I remain grateful for all those things. Deo gratias! Semper Deo gratias! I think I would not be where, what and who I am had I not coursed through the years of joy, of love, of pain, of tears.

And below are thirty things I learned for the past thirty years.

1. Prayer is very important.
2. Be at peace with yourself.
3. You are God's greatest gift for you and for all your love ones.
4. Keep a journal.
5. A few, good friends are enough.
6. You do not need to please everyone.
7. Read, read and read.
8. Engage with people.
9. Do not be afraid to say, "I love you."
10. Share what you have learned.
11. Attitude matters but it is not enough.
12. Work counts.
13. Passion and rigor is necessary in whatever field you are.
14. Crying is for everyone.
15. Letting go of persons and things are part of the process.
16. Leave a legacy -- it need not be grandiose. It suffices that you touched one soul.
17. It helps to know that I am not superman. I can only do much.
18. Be thankful.
19. Surf, surf, and surf.
20. Blogging is great.
21. Friendster is interesting.
22. What I mean is, get in touch with old friends.
23. Take time to listen to good music, drink a cup of coffee and read a good book.
24. Jogging helps.
25. Treat your parents to a movie and a wonderful dinner.
26. Go for an annual retreat.
27. There is nothing wrong in watching a movie by yourself.
28. Pamper yourself.
29. Sing in the bathroom.
30. Life is short. Live it to the full. Deo gloria; Homo vivens.

Now, its time to look forward for the next thirty years.

A Birdwatcher's Flight

This is a reprint from Windhover's second quarter issue of 2005.

Some men captivate you by the power of their words. Some attract you by the strength of their minds. Few draw you by their mere presence. And Charlie’s presence is both power and strength. A fellow scholastic, on seeing Fr. Charlie basking in the morning sunshine, confides, “ I would want to age and grow old in the Society [of Jesus].”

Even at the age of eighty-five, Charlie infects Jesuits with his serenity. His calmness is contagious. A former novice remembers him as the “man with a red cap strolling at Doyle’s walk – ever constant in his rhythmical cadence. He seems to be undisturbed by any pressing concern. He seems to be seized by his present moment.” The former novice adds, “there is so much gentleness in this man’s heart.” I wonder what makes him such. Probably, it has something to do with the sparrows or the swallows.

When I was in the Novitiate, Charlie was known in the community as the Birdwatcher. It was Scholastic Terence Ang from whom I first heard that endearment. He easily identified those winged creatures. And Charlie knew them by their names.

His love for the birds started quite early in his life. He grew up in a country place – Ant Hills in Pennsylvania where there were lots of, as Charlie himself described, “fields, trees and flowers around” – a good nesting place for the sparrows and swallows and their broods. The naming of the birds was a “family interest.” Charlie shared that, “several members of the family were really interested… they knew a lot about birds… we would be up and walking together… someone would call out, ‘There is a sparrow hawk!’ Then, we would hear the sparrow hawk and see it fly. So I began to identify the birds…”

Like his vocation to the Society, someone called out, not for crying out loud but through letters. At an early age, Charlie wanted to become a priest. “There were good diocesan priests in our place,” Charlie observed. But it was clear to him that he desired to become a religious. He did not study in any Jesuit school. He finished his primary studies at the Mount Aloysius Academy and his secondary studies at the Altoona Catholic High School. He did not know of any Jesuit priest at that time. But his elder brother’s best friend was a certain Bill Rively. Better yet, Bill Rively, nSJ. Bill had been sending letters to Charlie’s family regarding his life in the novitiate. From Bill, he learned of the Jesuits and the activities novices do in the novitiate. His interest in the Society began and at the age of seventeen, he entered the novitiate of St. Isaac Jogues in Wernersville, Pennsylvania.

Charlie and Bill became good friends. So when Bill was sent to the missions the correspondence between the two continued. Charlie might have been touched and edified with what he read. He expressed his intent to go to the mission. In August of 1941, he reached the shores of the Philippines to do his philosophy studies in Sacred Heart Novitiate in Novaliches. The war broke out. Charlie and most of the American missionaries were sent to Los Baños as prisoners of war. There were stories about the prison camp that had seen print but for Charlie all he had to say about it was this: “it had its consolations and desolations.”

After the war, he went back to Pennsylvania to do his regency in Scranton Preparatory School. For two years, he taught Religion, Latin, English and French. Then he studied theology at Woodstock. In June of 1949, he was ordained to the priesthood. He did his Tertianship in Auriesville, New York.

Seven years after the war, he returned to the Philippines. The first few years, he shaped the minds of college students from Ateneo de Naga and Zamboanga. He taught them Language, Philosophy and Theology. He even moderated the Dramatic Society in Naga. In the years that followed, he formed the hearts of our young men. He taught Latin grammar to the Novices. He was even made the Director of Formation of our Jesuit Brothers for the whole Philippine Province. Then, Fr. De la Costa assigned Charlie as the Master of Novices. He was, in the words of one of his former novices, “quite liberal.” “I was just,” he said, “continuing the programs Mike had set in place.”

In the years that followed, he touched and healed the souls of those who came to him. As a man of the Spiritual Exercises, he facilitated retreats. As a fellow Jesuit, he is our spiritual father. “Thank God for the gift of faith,” Charlie would say to those who would go for confession to him. I think this is where his power gets its source. Charlie’s strength is something that can not be stolen. To the God who notices even the single sparrow that falls to the ground, I thank Him for the gift of Charlie, a man of faith. A man whose deep trust in the Lord is articulated by his mere presence. It exudes and overflows. And it touches the hearts of those who see him.

Charlie died last Wednesday, 25th of April 2007, at two in the morning. We lost a good man here on earth. But we thank God for the gift of faith, heaven gained a saint.

Splash Island

smile

Take a Bat!

It happened yesterday.

I strolled along the empty




hallway beside the Oratory.
I saw a bat sleeping on its butt.
"An interesting sight,"
I told myself.
It was the first time I saw a bat
sleeping on its butt --
a bat on its butt.

Regency Assignment

thanks to errol nebrao, s.j.

The Lenten Season

Lent is a preparation for the celebration of Easter. For the Lenten liturgy disposes both catechumens and the faithful to celebrate the paschal mystery: catechumens, through the stages of Christian initiation; the faithful, through reminders of their own baptism and through penitential services.

Some Notes on the Lenten Season
(lifted from the Jesuit Ordo of the Philippine Province)

1. The Sundays of Lent are so important that not even a solemnity can take their place. Solemnities occurring on these Sundays are observed on the Saturday preceding.

2. The weeks of Lent from Ash Wednesday to the Saturday before Palm Sunday take precedence over the memorials of saints, which may be celebrated only according to the norms established by liturgical statutes.

3. The Alleluia is always omitted where it is found in the Liturgy of the Hours and in the celebration of the Mass.

4. The Te Deum and the Gloria are suppressed except on solemnities and feasts, and also on festive occasions.

5. In the Office: the antiphon at the Invitatory, hymn at the Office of Readings, Morning Prayer and Evening Prayer, and the antiphon at Daytime Prayer and Night Prayer are found the proper of this Season.

6. Flowers and decorations at the altar are prohibited; the organ and other musical instruments may be used only to accompany the singing, except on Laetare Sunday (4th Sunday of Lent) and during solemnities and feasts.

7. Catholics are obliged to fast on Ash Wednesday and Good Friday and are to abstain from meat on Ash Wednesday, Good Friday and all the Fridays of Lent. We are also reminded, as stipulated in the Code of Canon Law, that there are other works and means of doing penance: prayer, acts of self-denial, almsgiving and works of personal charity. Attending Mass daily or several times a week, praying the rosary, making the way of the cross, teaching the illiterate to read, reading to the blind, helping at a soup kitchen, visiting the sick and shut-ins and giving an overworked mother a break by baby-sitting—all of these can be even more meaningful and demanding than simply abstaining from meat on Friday.

May you have a meaningful and Christ-centered Lenten season this year.

Looking Up...

... and a little bit drunk.

Waiting, Waiting, Waiting

I never enjoyed waiting.

Jess Paul and I arrived in a radio station along EDSA Avenue at a quarter past one in the afternoon. We were supposed to meet with a group working for good governance and clean election. The meeting was scheduled at one thirty in the afternoon.

They arrived at almost three p.m.

It is just a sad state -- to see people work and labor to demand the government and other institutions to abide to high standards of leadership. Yet we find ourselves lacking and almost a slack in simple standards of living -- i.e., punctuality.

So, when and where does change begin? I can only re-echo what a Bishop said, "it is character change." But, this would be a long wait. I think it would take longer than the institutional reforms we are demanding from our leaders.

Food Trip

Abé... where good friends dine
serving an unlimited rice

Over the weekend, I, together with Bhong and Koko, were taken to a food trip by my mom and sister in Abé. It is located on the ground level of Serendra Circle at the Fort. Vanessa Escano writes of the resto,

The founder and president of the LJC Group of Restaurants (Café Adriatico, Café Havana, Bollywood), Mr. Larry J. Cruz (LJC), pays homage to his father, Abe Cruz, and his works through the founding of Abe restaurant. Respected writer and artist Emilio Aguilar “Abe” Cruz (1915-1991) was considered a bon vivant and gastronome in his time. This Manila-born Capampangan has literally eaten his way around the world, a result of his position as ambassador for UNESCO in the 70’s. Abe’s menu reflects a selection of his Filipino favorites, from old Binondo to his favorite Capampangan dishes and other regional recipes as well. In addition, Abe’s foodie artist and writer friends have shared their favorite recipes with the restaurant, such as Thelma San Juan with her mother’s Rellenong Mais.

The establishment itself is worth a visit because it is the only circular structure in Serendra, offering its guests with a wide and panning view of pedestrian and commercial activity – perfect for Sunday afternoon people watching. Additionally, Abe’s art works, drawings and memorabilia, can be found throughout the restaurant, along with vintage photographs and rare Philippine wood and panels. The contemporary feel and well-selected background music completes the dining experience for everyone in the family.

SERVED WITH LOVE

Offering a wide variety of dishes, Abe restaurant presents its clients with sophisticated, elegant and traditional Capampangan food, in addition to its old Binondo, Filipino and World dishes. Mr. LJC himself vets every dish on the menu to make sure that each one has been prepared carefully and served with love.

The must tries are the Paco Fern and Tomato Salad (P130.00, appetizing greens with salted egg, tomato and vinaigrette dressing); Spicy Sisig Pampanga(P155.00, minced pork jowl and chicken livers sautéed in garlic that’s great with rice); Cassoulet (P375.00, a French-style duck stew that captivated the ambassador during his diplomatic stint); Pastel de Lengua (P295.00,. tender and savory ox tongue cooked to perfection and matches flawlessly with its tasty pie crust topping). Match these dishes with a Tamarind Shake(P110.00) or Ambassador Cooler (P99.00, mango, dayap & guava with fizz). For rice lovers out there, unlimited servings are to be had for only P45.00. Most dishes are good for 2 to 3 people.

Job Vacancy

Society of Jesus Social Apostolate (SJSA) Secretariat
ISO Annex, Social Development Complex
Ateneo de Manila University Campus
Katipunan Avenue, Quezon City, Philippines

The Society of Jesus Social Apostolate (SJSA) is, a network of 27 Jesuit-Lay social apostolate units in the Philippines doing various development programs and projects for the empowerment of the Filipino poor and marginalized sectors of society. SJSA was established in 1989 to facilitate networking, information exchange and dialogue, pooling of resources and to consolidate the gains of the various Jesuit social apostolates nationwide. The SJSA Secretariat provides network assistance for its partner institutes engaged in research, policy formulation, lobbying and advocacy. Our partner institutes are also in the business of awareness building, capability building, grassroots mobilization and resource accessing. Our partnership shares in the heritage of the Ignatian Spirituality and the four-fold thrust of faith-justice-inculturation-dialogue.

Position Title: Program Assistant (full-time)

Tasks:

Program Documentation

• Transcription of workshop proceedings, minutes of meetings
• Summarization and synthesis of proceedings of meetings, workshops, fora

Data gathering and compilation, including field work

Information Networking

Website review and update

Crafting of Communications Plan

Project Proposal Review

Events Organizing (meetings, workshops, conferences)

Qualifications:

• College graduate
• Any four-year course
• 1-2 years of work experience
• Proficiency in oral and written English
• Organizing and planning skills
• High degree of service orientation
• Good interpersonal skills
• Good team player
• Good moral character

Interested applicants may submit their résumé at the above address or email them to sjsasec@admu.edu.ph.

For more information, please call Rina Garcia at 426-5991 or at 426-6001 loc. 4867.

At the Pen

Kim and I penned our thesis together in college. We did it in two weeks time, as in two weeks before graduation day. We both agreed that it was not something we are both proud of, for the result of our labor was something which our Dean described as "haphazardly done." But we never regretted the partnership. There are things better than erudition and intellectual scholarship -- we were then in the last stages of our teenage years.


Kim was the acoustics and percussion guy in our group. I remember him playing the guitar every after lunch -- either in the verandah of the study hall or in the Aula Magna (which was transformed in to a library). Speaking of library, he was also a voracious reader but I think it was more because of the required readings demanded of us at that time. He was also a very generous person. He would always offer his place in Pampanga when I needed to attend to some things in that area.

After college, we both took different directions. He went to Cebu. I headed for Makati to work for BPI. I saw him the year after that when I visited him in Talisay, Cebu. The second time we crossed path, I think, was two or three years ago. I visited my high school alma mater, Don Bosco Makati. He was teaching in the high school then.

We crossed path again last night at the Peninsula. We were at a classmate's wedding (Jimbo's). He played the guitar and I sang Huwag Kang Mangamba. After the wedding, again, we both took different directions. He headed back to Don Bosco Parañaque to finish his studies in theology, and hopefully, ordination in a year's time. I headed back to Loyola House to finish two papers in philosophy and a psychological report.


To my pen partner, till our roads meet again.

Kainan sa Lawa, Tanay, Rizal

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